this morning

i took the tube to work

i sat next to a man who wore a monacle. a honest to goodness real old school monacle.

truly these things still exist beyond the pages of sherlock holmes... Only in London.

It came faster than I thought...

I had to do it

there was nearly no time left

today was the last day to book flights for miss woo and i to go to nyc for her b'day...

so it's done!

and from the 15th-19th of April... we will mostly be in manhattan! ( and forest hills as that where miss Yvonne lives!)

Just when I intend to do any work between now and then and all the other mad travelling I've got planned... the answer would be I just don't know.

I had a vivid dream last night that i had 5 numbers in the lotto and woke up, checked my ticket and

i had 4 numbers

2 in each row

ah well...

we're all off to spitz tomorrow night to see andy's gig. should be good fun!

yipee

I'm going to Belgium to visit sio!!! I'm going so soon! On a train under the English Channel... I best pack my snorkel! Not long after that I'm going to Cornwall! Then when my seestor arrives on the 13th of March, I'm going to Barcelona! Poverty jet set baby poverty!

but first I'm mostly having my performance review today eek!

I've been so bad at updating lately, I can blame work... but it's all too true you would never believe me!

I heard back from the channel4 people who informed me that they're looking for someone with 2 years asst. producer experience for the internship and that (it paid really well) nice... ahh well, I've been a pc producer for yonks but they don't find it relevant... I may just try anyways and do my darndest to convince them... nothing ventured nothing gained.

My sad bike is back in action and I'm thoroughly enjoying cycling too and from work even when it's damp as the weather is warming up and it's around 11 degrees :) The tulips are starting to sprout in the park! We're far from summer but spring may just come a bit early this year...

updates a plenty

well I'm very happy to report that Sean hasn't fallen off the face of the earth and he is alive and well! *phew*

KJ's boy interest is finally back in town and has rang her so that's all good!

I've got like a million things I need to do at lunch today but only one hour in which to do it all!?!?! what's a girl to do? I locked my bike up outside my gym just down the road and feel quite nervous about it... I've got the fear since my tyre getting knicked... *deep breaths*

Heading to the art fair at the design centre tonight with woo... will report back on that demain

So I'm wondering how mad it would be for me to apply to do an internship as a producer/commissioner with channel 4... I mean clearly it would mean a HUGE pay cut (and one would assume even that the training would be unpaid) but I saw the ad in the guardian on Monday and have felt tempted ever since... would I be mad to venture that far out of my sandbox?

I just hate it sometimes when I get a bee in my bonnet about something... I just can't seem to shake it!

so...

I've packed my bags and i'm ready to move... everything is on my G drive and it's just a matter of time before I'm out of this stupid little box... new computer to arrive soon! But it's got me wondering weather or not I would somehow manage to compress my life and store it all on the G drive too in preparation for a move.

Things are a brewing in my mind and I know change is a coming! I'm not sure how when or where yet, but gaud dang it's going to be soon. If you put your ear really close to the screen you can almost hear me whispering it to you. (write me and let me know what you hear)

I'll accept any ideas or cash donations towards the cause as my lotto number just did not come up last night damn it!

abs a plenty

I've been mostly getting over my anger towards the stupid little chav kids who nicked my front tyre when I locked up my bike outside of budgens on my way home on Monday night... I ALWAYS lock it but of course thinking that I would only be 3 secs I did not... and they stole it. little feckers! The pub owner across the road saw them do it but he was busy chucking out an unwanted patron so he couldn't help... He pointed up the road towards my flat. 'they legged it that way' he said. So I'm dragging my bike home feeling rather furious... and at the top of the road, who do I see? The kids! To add insult to injury they taunted me asking me where my tyre was. I wanted to rip their heads off. Sometimes I wish I was a 6ft tall bloke... as I would have caused some serious harm. *deep breaths*

well nothing I can do about it... just comes at a super bad time as the month after xmas is never a good time... like the last thing I can afford right now is a new tyre... and to top it off it was Luke's not mine... so I have to replace it for him! Thankfully my nice flatmates have offered to lend me their disused bikes until I can afford to replace the wheel :)

so gymming has been on the agenda a lot and I think it's not possible for my abs to hurt anymore than they already do. I did this mad 1/2h ab session last night, man oh man... but it's good to be back in the swing of things.

on another note, should I mention the Dan taping down the tongue of her trainers? nahh... would be too funny...

KJ has booked her march break trip over to see me! She's arriving on the 13th! Will be good fun. And I've got the entire week booked off already!

Still no sign of Sean McCann... I think he's truly missing in action this time... If you see him can you tell him he's got a pressie waiting for him at my mum's place in TO!!!

speaking of mums... I think I hear her calling... see ya.

it would just be far too much...

for me to even attempt to write down all my xmas exploits.

I will however summarize by saying that it was simply lovely to be home and spend such quality time with my family... even though my sister gave me what I enjoyed calling SARS... I was swiftly informed that it was not appropriate to joke about the disease like that... oh well, there's me the queen of the inappropriate!

I did however while on holidays... meet the cutest but most anti social Chihuahua named mya...

I also managed to lose my favorite black hat in my sister's school. Last year when I went I lost my fav black scarf... I'm now convinced that there is a bizarre curse with that place. I'm not impressed let me add!

I managed to see all my relations and even managed to spend a night in TO with Karm and then got to have a quick coffee with the lovely Mark. I even got to see Andy, Mark's son :)

Back here in London it was great to see miss woo again. NYE was V low fi as we just had supper at la porchetta near my house and then just stopped by Filthy's (local pub) on the way home. The neighbours from downstairs joined us which was fun.

Being back at work is decidedly evil. I'm not sure how much more I can cope with before I just chuck it all in and get a job in a completely un-related field... I'm just itching to do so but rational and logical thinking keeps pulling me back down to earth and convincing me that I would be mad to give up good money for an uncertain future....

anyone want to buy me a lotto ticket?

farewell

my blogubines!

I shall mostly be in the great white north for the next 10 days...

that will be me, there... right behind the polar bear and next to the penguin... if you need to find me I'll be at my mum's house it's the igloo on the corner.

goodbye jolly ol' England...

I shall see you again soon

happy holidays all!

well

some clever chappy tookphotos at our xmas party last night... and sadly, but more so surprisingly I'm not in any of them... but they're a good laugh anyways...

i had 5 or 6 glassed of champers... and one vodka

didn't make a fool of myself!!!

the only excitement was, that some drunk waaanker tried to snog me on the train home... he managed to lick my ear. ewwwwwwwwwwwwww! then had the audacity to ask me if i was taking him home with me? I mean is this normal behaviour? Hello, total stranger on train... let me stick my tongue in her ear that'll win her over! *shudders*

but i'm all good

off to social tonight for carlolyn's b'day...

need lard

*shuffles off*

so

it all didn't end in vodka it was more like tequila... but with the weekend all settled and my bank account still plummeting into the red it's still all good baby!

I think perhaps it's the sunshine that's been beaming over London town for the past two days that's put a spring in my step. Or perhaps it's the fact that I've got 3 more sleeps till I go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've put up some fairy lights in the flat (although most of them have had a mind of their own and decided to fall down) as well as some around my bed. Looks kind of like it's floating.... fit!

The office xmas party is tonight. I wonder if I will manage to keep myself from making an ass of myself... there's always a first time for everything. My oh so not carefully chosen outfit is quite hilarious... all black of course... with 3/4 length pencil skirt black button down shirt and black belt with brushed silver buckle... fishnets on legs and alternating footware... high top black leather converse for walking and black boots with heels for the party... some would say tragic... I simply prefer to see it as comfort first... and yea... I look funny... but I don't care... I swear...okay yea maybe I do since I find it necessary to write about...

I'll get my coat

i'm back

well I have been for a few days now.

Paris was lovely and the hotel really nice (free upgrade to boot!) We did loads of museums and lots of art bookshops.. sipped coffee, drank wine and had really nice meals. I highly recommend a 2 day break to Paris! At 130£ you can't go wrong really. The only down side is actually coming back. Don't get me wrong I love London but the Parisians are just much more refined in the way they live... cleaner metros a slower pace of life... great appreciation for the arts. I could go one... but I shan't.

work has been so busy since my return I've greatly neglected my poor blog. So much so that this morning I was dreaming about writing an entry. Of course the entry was full of wit and intrigue... sadly I fear that's been lost in the time between waking and arriving at work.

I'm hopped up on gourmet jelly beans and multiple chocolate miniatures... lord knows where I'm going to fit the team lunch in... we're heading down to a pub in Chelsea (just down the road)... the big xmas party is on the 16th at another poncy place near to the office... wonder how much champers I can scarf this year... when will I ever learn?

Xmas shopping is dragging behind me like a gimp leg... I keep thinking I'm almost done (or that's what my bank account is insisting) but alas 1 day of shopping hardly crossed off all the items on my list... someone please give me strength... me of all people, losing the will to shop? well I never thought the day would come!

My kingdom for anyone who's got a tip on where to find a pair of white addidas rod laver trainers in size 5.

it'll all end in vodka....

how class is that? i read that line in a mail out today for some club that we went to that one night for that popbitch party... I think that will be my weekend's motto...

I'm still recovering from the shock of having visited the Y are we here bar last night... I didn't think it possible for it to get any worse... *shudders* However miss Jo jo was looking fab with her new shorter locks... no more feather like whisps on top any more... she is the eternal beacon of change!

oh yea... by the way i'm now convinced that CAVA makes me retarded... I sense a trend here...

*runs away*

ah oui... je ne serais pas ici au début de la semaine prochiane, je serai a Paris! woo woo!!!!!!!!! a + tout le monde

today's numbers


dirty little stop out still dressed in xmas party dress spotted doing the walk of shame this morning 1

groggy half awake co-workers 5

co-worker firing Styrofoam gun at me while I threatened to send him to Poland to train a new employee 1

number of numbers I got in last night's lotto 2

days left of work until next year 8

more figures will be distributed as they become available

brilliant!


Furniture kits for divorced men


now i think i should drop this guy a line as he could have a niche market in lesbian breakups too... wonder if he wants a new business partener?

Canterbury tails...

ha ha had to misspell it for fear of getting inundated by school kids researching for their English papers!

we had a great time.

- chatting with mad Italian blokes and sipping champers on the train down

- enjoying 1£ double vodkas at a local... and felling very old compared to most of the clientele

- wiping of a lipstick bindi applied by the mad owner who is apparently an evil little boy fiddler (at this club we went to)

- missing the snake charmers that were apparently brought up on stage as part of the Asian inspired theme

- chatting with locals who for some reason were really impressed that we lived in London... as if it were a far off untouchable place!

-chatting with a wee French bloke in drag who was Very brave to go out in frock in the middle of chav* land.

-catching chips from the front window from some random bloke who was walking by and willing to share his food... still a mystery how he managed to throw them to me 3 stories up... and how i managed to catch 2 out of 3 of them! yummy! *laugh*

- all piling into Tim's bed as Sally held court and ordered people around to fetch her fags and water

-watching finding nemo on video

-having a brilliant veggie kiev as part of a Sunday lunch that only cost 50£ for 7 people including drinks!

t'was good fun! My grandmother would love the town. I must bring her down there for the day the next time she's on this side of the ocean

scary thought for the day... it's only 14h45 an already the sun is weary and getting ready to set!

* chav = argos jewellery wearing, ring on every finger, hair scraped back into tight pony tail, big hoop earrings, shell suit, Reebok trainer wearing, pram pushing, teenage pregnancy -esq people

i'm guessing ...

that this detox thing is working as beyond feeling a bit light headed I think my body is enjoying the break from all the bad things I put into it. It's quite amazing how quickly you realize much crap you do eat when you're forced to think about it... however in retrospect... I would not recommend such an activity so close to xmas and so close to Tasha's and Andrea's Birthdays! No chocolate cake for me *poo*

And yes, if you're wondering which I'm sure you are... it is possible to catch a chill on your ankles while cycling... I discovered that little chestnut on my way in this morning... brrrr...

so the plan is to do xmas shopping for CDN peeps today at lunch. I'm going to buy peeps here xmas pressies from home as it seems like more fun to receive exotic gifts... yea well, not too sure about Toronto being exotic but we'll just pretend.

After making a botched 20£ donation to Ryan air... I am the biggest ditz in the world... Siobhan is not coming this weekend as initially planned. Too bad really as I wanted to see her! But in all things sad there is something glad... I'm going to head down to Canterbury this weekend instead!

Prior to leaving, the girls and I are hitting the shops to attempt to decorate our sadly un furnished flat... It will be really nice to finally make it into a home... the last two places I've lived have always been a stop gap and I've never settled or decorated.

It's a gloriously sunny day which makes me well happy. They had announced rain all week. I just love it when they're wrong!

you know

i'm definitely not the first person nor the last to ponder upon the capacities of human emotions...

sometimes when i'm not experiencing any major high or low I wonder to myself how I could have let certain things in my past upset me so much... it just seems impossible... I cite it as just a simple chemical fluxes in my system... It's kind of fascinating how that emotions are purely chemical.

"Time heals" and all that jazz- I do wonder if it is possible to have an infinite amount of love to give? When you've been hurt or you've hurt yourself you think you'll never ever be able to open yourself up to such pain ever again... but nothing ventured nothing gained... and as time passes you meet someone new, and things re-develop.

So I come back to that nagging question... Is if it is possible to have an endless supply of emotion to share with each new person in your life, or do the marks of time eventually start to show? I feel slightly worn down in this capacity, but don't get me wrong I am most definitely happy in my new relationship (albeit cautiously)... now, is that cautiousness a mark of me being worn down or is it just a defence mechanism? It's all part of the process... or else i guess it's just true that it takes a lot of love, to keep the heart from breaking....

i'm detoxing

for the first time ever... it's a five day plan. the only hard part is having no dairy and no diet coke! If you know me you're probably thinking what on earth is that girl going to eat as she practically lives on dairy products... lets just say it ain't much. Lord knows how any one ever manages to diet! It's so hard to think before you eat!!! Oh yea, and it's just never the right time to not be able to eat chocolate cake... what was I thinking!? next time I will have to plan before I attempt to cleanse my body of all the abuse that I've subjected it to of late

16 working days left (not including weekends of course and not including the time I'm taking off to go to Paris with miss W at the beginning of next month. If I said that I was counting down the minutes it wouldn't be too far from the truth.

apples are so filling

I had...

a very vivid but strange and gross dream last night

I was on a subway of sorts with my sister... when a bunch of lads piled on and dropped their friend in the seat next to me. He was extremely drunk and not at all in a good state... I was really agitated as there was a fare collector that made my sister and I pay 19£ for a one way journey... citing some stupid reason that I couldn't get my head around... then before you know it the horrible man next to me was sick all over me... pretty vivid and disgusting... what in god's name does that mean?

on a brighter note... happiness is:

finding out you've got 3 more day of holiday on top of the 7 days I'm taking off at xmas!
coming home to an uber clean flat (thank you lovely cleaning lady!)
owning fab orange boots purchased in NYC
being booked in to fall into a vat of gin with the lovely dearbhla
not getting schmucked by a taxi (which I so nearly did on my way home last night)

this morning...

on my way into work I cycled past hotel near to UCL and saw a man entering a black cab wearing only a towel wrapped around his waist... he was also wearing blue socks and a fleece jumper...? So i'm thinking... that I can't even begin to come up with a story that could explain what I saw... do you think the bird he was with just up and left taking all his clothes with her? Hmm?

then as I cycled through Hyde park I was getting rather warm as it's quite mild here today... so I un buttoned my ever so chic bright yellow rain coat and then unzipped my blue jumper a tiny bit... then this middle age Scottish man shouted at me as I rode by something to the likes of 'cover your chest up lass!'

If I didn't know better I would think it was nearing a full moon